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Let God be God in Our Lives

LUCA 17, 5-10
"I am going to lose my faith in God because He has never looked at my suffering and heard my prayers." I believe almost all of us, at certain point in our lives, we ourselves or have heard other people to voice out such frustration over one's own suffering situation to the point that he or she seems to lose faith in God because God has not heard his or her prayers. The readings in 27th Sunday in Ordinary Time has reflected this frustrate experience over one's suffering without God's intervention.
I myself experienced "the dark time" in my life, one failure after another. I continually prayed and tried in time of trouble. However, things were not changed for better, even worse. I was frustrated and impatient with myself and with God. I lost my focus in living at the moment. My mind was distracted away from my body to somewhere else. The distraction of my mind caused my situation at the moment even worse by not being able to live fully and to do things that I supposed to do. I felt stuck and depressed because I wanted things changed better as soon as possible that I could not wait to see. However, I was not able to change things for better.
I lost patience with myself and mentally inflicted myself that I was not good and smart enough. I victimized myself over my frustrate condition and situation. I withdrew myself from others. I also lost patience with God and blamed Him for not listening to my prayers. I expected God in my prayed to change things for better. However, I could not get what I wanted from God. Thus, I turned out to blame God and to lose my trust in Him for not listening to me or giving me what I asked.
One time in my prayers and silence, God spoke to my heart through the biblical passage, "Be still and know that I am God" (Psalm 46:10). That psalm spoke directly to my heart that I am not god over God. I could not pray in the way of demandingGod to do what I want. I realized when I was anxious and frustrated with myself and with God by losing my focus at the moment and wanted to see things changed for better as soon as possible, I did not let God be God in my life. However, I wanted to be god and played a role of god who wanted to have power over God in order to demand Him to do my will.
Instead of asking God to do my will as a wrong way to pray, I should pray in the way of conforming myself to God's will. I need to be patient in trusting God, in living fully and doing things that I supposed to do at the moment. The responsorial psalm in this Sunday readings: "if today you hear his voice, harden not your hearts" (Psalm 119) reminds me to soften my heart and to put my ego aside to trust in God in order "to let go and let God" in the midst of my difficulties and sufferings. All I can do and God asks me to do in the midst of challenging that I face is fully living and doing things at the moment including my daily duties. Anything else such as any issue that I have the past or in the future needs to be entrusted in God and let God be God in my life. In His divine wisdom and providence, God has His own time for everything and everyone including me.
Also in 2nd reading of this Sunday, Saint Paul also reminds his disciple, Timothy, as a reminder for us all, "For God did not give us a spirit of cowardice but rather of power and love and self-control"(2Timothy 1:7) in order to help us to endure our hardship and even to live peacefully and fully at the moment in the midst of my chaos.
I have realized many people today who have lost their faith in God because, in dealing with their difficulties in life, they lost patience in God. They ask God to change their situation for better; yet they do not see God's response and their situation even worse. They question God that If there is God, He should listen to them and give them what they want. When they do not get what they want from God, they lose their trust and faith in Him. In fact, they lose their patience in God Who does not satisfy their egos' demands.
The Gospel in this Sunday reminds us that God is the God and the Lord in our lives. God is the One who commands us to conforms ourselves to do His will. We are not gods who demand God to do our wills. We are all servants of God. We are called to do God's will by fully living and doing our daily obligation now and here at the moment.

The past is over that God does not ask us to look back. The future is not coming yet and God does not expect us to know although we can plan for future yet it is not in our control; the future is in God's control. Only moment that God wants us to live is the moment now and here because God does not say: "I am as I was" or "I am as I will be." God is God of the moment now and here as He said: "I am as I am."